suffering would be the right word to use now....

in a external and internal way

external would be just pure pain which i have to endure

my left leg hurt real bad and i have like 5 blisters total at my heel

wanna know where it happen?soccer!

no pain no gain.

ya shouldnt talk much



internal i had no idea what is going on

the dream that i didnt want to come back came back

and this really hurts, i thought by trying to change to other attention

might help, yes it did i was happy

but it seems it didnt last long

is it so strong i choose to believe that whatever in the dream that happen

doesnt happen in the world i am living.

keeping my finger cross,

when i woke up, i so wished that i can never sleep anymore

so that there would be no more dreams



reminder to this FAT fucker which i played soccer ytd,

dont let me call people if not you wont want to know what is gonna happen to you.

i swear to god. i am dead serious

try me once more if you are at the cage again.



suffering in silence.....

enjoy